November 30, 2011

I feel like God keeps placing random people in my life to get me to pay attention.

A computer tech came into my room inquiring about a work order that was placed at the end of last school year.

Yep, we're quick like that. . .

Anyways, the problem had resolved itself (I guess) but I asked about the computer I had kept grades on for years.  It runs slower than molasses.  

The man was kind enough to help and I stayed after my kids left to prepare for the week.

We started talking and I shared about what had happened to me two months earlier and how I have been contemplating where I belong next year.

I have experience at all three levels (primary, middle, and high)...but I don't want to work full time.

Right about now, I'm not sure I want to work at all.

I have this tugging at my heart--this longing to be with my kids more...this desire to shape their hearts and minds more consciously.

There are many ways I can fulfill my calling in life in other arenas...CCD classes, tutoring, homeschooling.

Yes, I said it.

Homeschooling is an option I have always said I would consider.

I've come to believe that some of the expectations that are required of our little ones is simply too much stress.

I want my kids to love learning.

The End.

That simply isn't the case anymore as tests scores are emphasized and mandates come down from the state.

It is sad to see.

It's difficult to be a part of.

I work tirelessly to do my job well.

But as the computer tech pointed out,

"Our children are the most important lives we instruct and influence."

Yes, they are.

Come to find out this man and his wife have chosen to homeschool their four children.

We talked and he shared scripture. This was my favorite:

"In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight."

Proverbs 3:6

So, I will continue to acknowledge him in full confidence that I will end up right where I belong.

It may not be where I expect; It may not be what others have come to expect from me.

All I know for sure is that I expect to find out.

Are you listening for His voice too?
Expect to hear from Him.
I do.