Showing posts with label contentment. Show all posts
Showing posts with label contentment. Show all posts

Tuesday, August 16, 2016

A Plan Seven Years in the Making

Time keeps right on flying by.  The last week of summer vacation is upon us.  I have no idea how it snuck up on us in this way!  While our summer did not look anything like we had planned, because we trusted God and were obedient and patient in a seven year wait. . .God brought us to what I like to think of as our "Forever Home."


The story is simple.  When I was pregnant with Janessa seven years ago, we began looking for a larger house.  My request was simple.  It had to have more than we currently have but not so much that it would feel enormous when my babies flew the nest.  Ernie and I composed a list.  A very thorough, specific list that would serve as our guide over the next seven years.  We immediately found and fell in love with  a brick house in an area north of us.  We put our house on the market in an attempt to purchase it contingent on us selling our home.  Unfortunately, they wanted no contingencies.  We were out of the running.

Hear me when I say, I feel like God was growing our contentment in ALL circumstances.  I truly believe, it's because we didn't get the house that I was able to work sixty percent, then only twenty percent, and now only one day a week from home.  Our little house on the corner of our world was enough.  Our small house, grew a tight family.  Our home hosted many gatherings that were overflowing with life and love.  The size did not matter.

However, over the seven years period of time, we would eventually fall out of escrow once; not stand a chance in another; and generally feel a little apprehensive as to why nothing worked out. It was three years ago when we took guardianship of our 12 year old brother in law that I began to sense maybe we really would outgrow this home.  His limbs were longer, friends bigger.  I began to wonder how we could host teenagers without being relegated to only the upstairs.  While I pondered, I didn't worry.  The house's location allowed me to hear my son on the PA for Thursdays announcements.  I was able to wave from the window as my kindergartener walked to the library on Friday.  High school was a mere seven minute walk away.  It was all good (for the most part).

And then, while on the first week of summer vacation--away at a beach house in Pismo, we got the text that set a chain of events in action that my mind is still reeling over.  Were we interested in the original home we had looked at seven years ago? Say what?  Um, yeah!!!  But how is this even possible and let's not get our hopes up because look at all that has happened before.  God obviously has wanted us to stay put.  Now could be the same thing. . .So, apparently when my aunt passed away a few months ago, we went to my cousin's after the funeral.  Low and behold it was right across the street from the house we had wanted. I said, "Oh, we could have been neighbors!!!  We loved that house but didn't get it."


Months later that same cousin would be talking to our mutual cousin, our realtor. She mentions the neighbors are moving out of the house Janene and Ernie loved.  Our realtor rushes over to talk to the owner to try and orchestrate something before it's put on the market.  She asks for us to be given a chance.  The owner agrees and shows us the house as soon as we are home from vacation.  Father's Day we see it, we offer what they are asking contingent on the appraisal and we are in escrow...on a Sunday.  On Father's Day, Ernie's first home purchase.  It was glorious really!  It was a whirlwind thirty-two days.  There was purging and packing that needed to be done.  There were good byes that needed to be said.  There were God's perfect plans unfolding.  7 years we waited for this house. 7 years.  There is so much significance to the number seven.  The number seven is the foundation of God's word. 

It doesn't matter how many times I tell this story, or write it.  My mind is blown Every.  Single.  Time.  God's ways are so perfect.  I believe this house was always His plan for us, hence why we were so drawn to it.  Over the years, I can't tell you the number of times we drove by thinking. . .this was the one that got away, yet being content to stay where God put us.  Our neighborhood became our mission field.  We loved it.  We still do.  So much in fact we are going to have to let it go.  Selling it is the best option simply because we love it so much, we would love to get a family in there who will love it in much the same way.
I thought moving would be incredibly emotional for me.  Surprisingly, it's not.  Home is where my people are.  They are all here with me, so I'm home. I'm happy.  I'm content. I'm grateful to God for orchestrating this house buying experience.  Truly He is the author of our story and we feel blessed to be a part.

Tuesday, December 30, 2014

Hope

As the end of the year approaches, deaths of women around me has been the constant reminder that today is ALL I have.  And what I have is good.  What I have is really enough.  Never have I felt so content in all my life.  Never.  And what a blessing to have this sense of contentment and deep gratitude living inside me. The knowledge and understanding that this life is the only one we are guaranteed. Today is all we are gifted.

So what does it take to recognize the fragility of life if losing Ofie,  Sandra, Jen, or Meg wasn't enough?  These four are just in my personal circle of acquaintances and the truth is there are so many more who have been called home too soon.  And yet still some of us live as if we have all the time in the world. December 27th burns bright in my memory because it is the anniversary of my grandma's death.  Pancreatic cancer ate away at her and she went quickly.  Yet years later, cancer would return to haunt her only daughter at fifty-one and the battle that ensued was life changing and life giving.  Thank God for new treatments and doctors who know their craft to concoct a plan that would ultimately give me more time with my mom. She's nine years cancer free.  Praise be to God!

Earlier this year, a former student of mine succumbed to death weeks after a lung cancer diagnosis.  She was fit and smart, a radiant light snuffed out too soon.  There was such a deep grieving taking place in that church at her funeral.  But as I looked around, I was filled with a sense of hope. I was hopeful her untimely and unfortunate death would speak life giving words into the lives of lost teenagers. They would live their life well because Sandra's life was lost when it was on the brink of new beginnings with graduation looming in her future.

Just weeks ago another acquaintance in her late 30's died from lung cancer.  She was not a smoker.  But she is gone, leaving a husband and two small children to do life without her and it is tragic.  It is untimely.  And I'm mad about it because it just doesn't seem fair.  It isn't.  But it happened and it will keep happening.  We need to be more acutely aware of taking care of ourselves from the inside out--fueling our bodies with real food, nourishing our hearts and souls with the word. . .and being proactive when it comes to our health!  We can not afford not to be!

But no matter what we are going through. . .we must always choose hope.  And that is where Heather Von St. James' story comes in.  Like Sandra and Jen, she too was diagnosed with lung cancer. My woman warrior heart and my mama heart collided when I heard her story. And I knew I had to share it.

When she was 36, just after her first baby, Lily was born, she was diagnosed with mesothelioma, a form of cancer caused by asbestos. People that young aren’t supposed to get mesothelioma, but she did. When she was a girl, she wore her dad’s work coat all the time. It was covered in asbestos from his construction job. People who get mesothelioma aren’t supposed to live for very long. She was told she had 15 months.  Nine years later, holding on to hope, she is still here. Praise be to God! She is using her voice to tell her story, to spread hope and raise awareness about mesothelioma.  




Let's do our part.  Life is fleeting, hang on and live it well.  Live it with eyes wide open that YOU matter and your voice is listened to. Let us be a voice for those who have been silenced by this disease. Let us raise our voices and declare that with hope the odds don't matter!! 
"'For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the Lord, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you HOPE and a future'."--Jeremiah 29:11

Here's to a hopeful 2015 filled with blessings and good health!!!