August 25, 2012

"She watches over the affairs of her household and does not eat the bread of idleness. Her children arise and call her blessed;
 her husband also, and he praises her: “Many women do noble things, but you surpass them all.”--Proverbs 31:27-29

We are working on a devotional together, first thing in the morning. While it got done, the table wasn't cleared as we had to rush out the door.

It has been a busy week at home, at school, getting the kids back in the rhythm of daily school
life. . .finding my  rhythm.  For five years I have missed out on the daily wake up calls, doing hair, making breakfasts, and walking the kids to school.  This week, as of Wednesday, I was thrust into that role. Finding our rhythm is new for us.

Some children in this house may or may not have insisted on chocolate milk and pancakes every. single. day.  "But that's what grandma would make us, " they insisted.  "Well, I'm not grandma," was my usual reply.  And truth be told--I didn't have the time to bust out with the full course breakfast menu.  One of these days, I will.  But not this week.  And I'm totally okay with that.  There's a lot of things a lot of people do, that for one reason or another, I can't, or I don't.  That's life.  And I am already hard enough on myself, I can't let the thought of living up to the expectations of other great women mar my joy in the present moment.  I just can't.

After completing my Proverbs 31 study  this summer, I feel like I've grown a lot as a wife and mom.  But I still have so much to learn and work on.  It was during this study that I realized what a process becoming a Proverbs 31 women really  is.  She did not do all these labor of loves every single day.  She did grow weary, but she pushed through the weariness and found the joy in serving her husband and children.  That's where I am.  I'm looking at serving with love; Clothing myself in patience, love, joy, and peace so that the daily irritants do not set the tone for the day.  This is a bit of a stretch, as my type-A personality sometimes gets the best of me.  This week alone, someone overslept, someone else forgot to fill out their reading log, another child spilled milk, someone(s) complained about what they had to eat for breakfast, someone(s) specifically asked for certain lunch items, a bed or two was not made, and towels were left on the floor.  All this and the television was never even on.

Yes, we are in for a different kind of season,  This I can be assured.  And as long as I keep my eyes focused on Him, "in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight."--Proverbs 3:6
Totally trusting Him on this one.  It's in His hands.  Our rhythm will come. It just takes time.