I see glimpses of it at the dawn of my day and as I fall into slumber. But the edges are all blurred and the picture it seems is out of focus. The joke is on me: my word of the year was focus, remember? God SO has a sense of humor!
And how, in all the craziness that consumes us currently, is it that I would have a brief moment of clarity where I took immediate action to end this thing that I spent seventeen years in the making?
How, at a time when life seems anything but stable did I get brave enough to simply walk away?
I'm not sure how to answer that yet.
But I did it anyways. I took a big leap of faith and gave myself permission to admit that the biggest legacy I leave behind is the impact I have on the life of my children. I admitted that my vision for our family life matters more than the opinions of others. I took the step that has wanted to be taken for at least the last two years. . .and it feels exhilarating!
I feel full of hope and am resting comfortably in God's plan for me. It feels so freeing to have released myself from the burden that had become my job. . .to not have to walk the delicate tightrope. I feel full of wonder to see what doors open or what other opportunities are out there when the time is right.
For the love of all the students I've encountered over the past seventeen years, it was time to press pause. It was time to let go of the dream I once had and begin to dream anew. There is no time like the present so that is what I intend to do: to laugh, to love, to play, and to be blessed by the memories I have and to dream big dreams for my tomorrows.
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